they’re not just talking about dean. they’re talking about each other. they’re talking about sam.
you know, honestly i don’t think sam really thought that was going to happen when they took jack in. he’d be a good mentor, a good role model, maybe be like an uncle figure. he knew he would teach him and guide him as well as keep him safe, but i think he thought it’d be like when he helps out claire.
somewhere along the way, jack became not just cas’s son. he became his, too. he became a son to all of team free will.
sam talking to cas about them having lost people before…. he wasn’t just talking about dean. he’s also talking about himself. “why does this hurt more than when everyone else died? why can’t i compartmentalize my emotions like the other times?” sam is trying to understand why he’s hurting this much as well.
as cas points out, losing your child suddenly is vastly different than losing a parent or a close friend. it’s unnatural. especially when that child has only been alive for such a short time.
so yeah i know some people choose to call sam jack’s uncle and i know they don’t mean anything by it (some have a reason i can empathize with), but i really think personally that “uncle” really doesn’t describe sam and jack’s relationship. it doesn’t really feel like it adequetely covers the depths of sam’s love for jack.
(on a side note, this whole episode made me think of a line from john q)
I SHOULD BE SLEEPING BUT I HAD A THOUGHT AND NOW IT WONT LEAVE
so i was shutting down some negativity with a positive qt about this summary:
and i was being very “hey these bonds need a shot at forming too” (because they do and sam&cas deserve some bro time that isn’t centered around OMG WE NEED TO SAVE DEAN) when it dawned on me:
mary was paired up with sam when they split up and they talked about bobby and how she finds it hard to get him to open up cause walls
and what was she wearing?
and who ELSE do we know wears a tan coat, hmm?
me when i connected the dots
ME AN HOUR LATER AFTER IT PROCESSED:
YALL
like imagine
cas and sam are in the car driving home. sam checks in with cas, just seeing how he’s doing emotionally cause that’s sam for ya. cas tries to use the winchester f word but half way through the syllable opens up about how he wishes dean would just talk to him about his trauma and let down his walls
and sam tells him the same thing he told his mother: that if he cares about him, and he knows cas does, he’d try to get past that wall.
i’m a freakin endgame-positive shipper and i’m gobsmacked at how freaking obvious they’re being
what i’m gleaning from… whatever this is… is that dean is going to struggle with figuring out his place in the bunker. his place in the family.
dean has always been the person in charge. he had to raise sam. he was duty bound by his father to protect his baby brother. the past 14 years, he’s been calling the shots. dean has been made to be the leader 100% of the time, by his father. by fate. he doesn’t know how to not be a leader.
when he comes home to people calling sam “sir” and “chief” and deferring to sam’s leadership and everyone still alive and healthy (tho lbr probably not getting as much good food because their chef was mia)… he’s not going to know what to do with himself. he’s going to feel useless because what he thought was his only role in life is being filled by his giant moose of a brother.
and dean winchester does not take orders (non-sexy ones, anyway) so him and sam’ll probably clash. maybe sam and cas team up to yell at him to rest, they got this. dean is going to end up feeling like that sitcoms mom that goes back to work and thinks the house can’t run without her but everyone seems to be doing ok and she feels unneeded.
i do predict, tho, that they figure it out fairly quickly in a way that doesn’t piss them both off for episodes on end, preferably.
this season seems to be tfw figuring out together through jack, shared son and mirror extraordinaire, that their worth isn’t in what their roles are supposed to be or their powers or what their skills are.
it’s in the people they love. they’re needed and worth something because they have family that care about them and need them alive because they’re them.
i just want everyone to be and do things because they want to. not because they have “no other choice”.
i found it on twitter…. i cant remember exactly where, i’m sorry.
as far as every season, possibly, but this is the first i’ve seen one.
i do want to make note, tho, that this isn’t officially anything. it’s kinda like jason fischer’s quote of the day from what i understand of it. it doesn’t necessarily relate to any storyline.
HOWEVER, that doesn’t mean that we can’t speculate and relate anyway. for example, there are a lot of artists/songwriters on that playlist that are famous bisexuals and, being a bi!dean fan myself, i’ve been flipping over it.
hope that clears things up as much as possible. if you have any other questions, definitely let me know!
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