they’re not just talking about dean. they’re talking about each other. they’re talking about sam.
you know, honestly i don’t think sam really thought that was going to happen when they took jack in. he’d be a good mentor, a good role model, maybe be like an uncle figure. he knew he would teach him and guide him as well as keep him safe, but i think he thought it’d be like when he helps out claire.
somewhere along the way, jack became not just cas’s son. he became his, too. he became a son to all of team free will.
sam talking to cas about them having lost people before…. he wasn’t just talking about dean. he’s also talking about himself. “why does this hurt more than when everyone else died? why can’t i compartmentalize my emotions like the other times?” sam is trying to understand why he’s hurting this much as well.
as cas points out, losing your child suddenly is vastly different than losing a parent or a close friend. it’s unnatural. especially when that child has only been alive for such a short time.
so yeah i know some people choose to call sam jack’s uncle and i know they don’t mean anything by it (some have a reason i can empathize with), but i really think personally that “uncle” really doesn’t describe sam and jack’s relationship. it doesn’t really feel like it adequetely covers the depths of sam’s love for jack.
(on a side note, this whole episode made me think of a line from john q)
this moment about sam remembering jack’s birthday?
dean blanks completely and sam remembers exactly.
sam remembers for the same reason dean forgot: it was one of the worst days of their lives.
their mom is gone. their best friend was murdered. and they had what they thought was a scary powerful creature on the loose.
and what i think is amazing is that even though it was the worst day, it was the start of a significant and beautiful change in their lives.
The LOOK Dean gives Sam.. That’s…not just startled Sam is quick to name a date. Look at how Dean shoots a very hard stare. His face shuts off, it looks like Dean tenses up, even fight-or-flight mode for a split second. Why? Because Dean does remember That Date but not as Jack’s birthday. It’s the date Cas was murdered in front of his eyes. That’s, I think, what Dean’s mind goes to first when Cas says that date. Then when Sam explains it’s Jack’s birthday Dean relaxes.
yes EXACTLY. i didn’t add that deeper destiel analysis on this post because i was focusing on them becoming dads and jack and feels related to that but YES
“forgot” is the wrong word. dean didn’t forget. buried deep to try and forget, yes. but he never could. not for as long as he lives.
jack’s birthday
this moment about sam remembering jack’s birthday?
dean blanks completely and sam remembers exactly.
sam remembers for the same reason dean forgot: it was one of the worst days of their lives.
their mom is gone. their best friend was murdered. and they had what they thought was a scary powerful creature on the loose.
and what i think is amazing is that even though it was the worst day, it was the start of a significant and beautiful change in their lives.
The level of restraint and diplomacy Dean displayed throughout the episode was truly remarkable. Dean is the most experienced hunter on the planet and more than capable of judging for himself if someone is ready to hunt or not, yet he carefully avoided anything that might seem like he was undermining Sam’s authority.
co-parenting done right oh my god
like it didn’t hit me until now that he was making sure that he didn’t just undermine sam’s authority as 1/3 of the dads in their little family and not just as a leader
oh my god i love him
FURTHER THOUGHTS THAT HIT ME
and it didn’t hit me that he wasn’t just calling sam because sam somehow ended up being the bunker hunters’ leader. it was also because that’s what you do when you parent a kid with someone. and if there’s one thing dean knows that he swears he sucks at, it’s parenting.
ALSO sam isn’t just asserting his authority all over the place. they talk about it like EQUALS. AS IVE BEEN WANTING FOR THEM ALL ALONG.
and even when sam isn’t there, he still makes sure that dean has family, has someone familiar and close to him to look after him.
The level of restraint and diplomacy Dean displayed throughout the episode was truly remarkable. Dean is the most experienced hunter on the planet and more than capable of judging for himself if someone is ready to hunt or not, yet he carefully avoided anything that might seem like he was undermining Sam’s authority.
co-parenting done right oh my god
like it didn’t hit me until now that he was making sure that he didn’t just undermine sam’s authority as 1/3 of the dads in their little family and not just as a leader
fr tho, anon, go be salty on your own blog and let us enjoy the nice things we’re getting for everyone.
more happy tfw 2.0 for the rest of us
I SHOULD BE SLEEPING BUT I HAD A THOUGHT AND NOW IT WONT LEAVE
so i was shutting down some negativity with a positive qt about this summary:
and i was being very “hey these bonds need a shot at forming too” (because they do and sam&cas deserve some bro time that isn’t centered around OMG WE NEED TO SAVE DEAN) when it dawned on me:
mary was paired up with sam when they split up and they talked about bobby and how she finds it hard to get him to open up cause walls
and what was she wearing?
and who ELSE do we know wears a tan coat, hmm?
me when i connected the dots
ME AN HOUR LATER AFTER IT PROCESSED:
YALL
like imagine
cas and sam are in the car driving home. sam checks in with cas, just seeing how he’s doing emotionally cause that’s sam for ya. cas tries to use the winchester f word but half way through the syllable opens up about how he wishes dean would just talk to him about his trauma and let down his walls
and sam tells him the same thing he told his mother: that if he cares about him, and he knows cas does, he’d try to get past that wall.
i’m a freakin endgame-positive shipper and i’m gobsmacked at how freaking obvious they’re being
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