I SHOULD BE SLEEPING BUT I HAD A THOUGHT AND NOW IT WONT LEAVE

so i was shutting down some negativity with a positive qt about this summary:

and i was being very “hey these bonds need a shot at forming too” (because they do and sam&cas deserve some bro time that isn’t centered around OMG WE NEED TO SAVE DEAN) when it dawned on me:

mary was paired up with sam when they split up and they talked about bobby and how she finds it hard to get him to open up cause walls

and what was she wearing?

and who ELSE do we know wears a tan coat, hmm?

me when i connected the dots

ME AN HOUR LATER AFTER IT PROCESSED:

YALL

like imagine

cas and sam are in the car driving home. sam checks in with cas, just seeing how he’s doing emotionally cause that’s sam for ya. cas tries to use the winchester f word but half way through the syllable opens up about how he wishes dean would just talk to him about his trauma and let down his walls

and sam tells him the same thing he told his mother: that if he cares about him, and he knows cas does, he’d try to get past that wall.

i’m a freakin endgame-positive shipper and i’m gobsmacked at how freaking obvious they’re being

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so let’s talk about eugenie’s non-answer

what i’m gleaning from… whatever this is… is that dean is going to struggle with figuring out his place in the bunker. his place in the family.

dean has always been the person in charge. he had to raise sam. he was duty bound by his father to protect his baby brother. the past 14 years, he’s been calling the shots. dean has been made to be the leader 100% of the time, by his father. by fate. he doesn’t know how to not be a leader.

when he comes home to people calling sam “sir” and “chief” and deferring to sam’s leadership and everyone still alive and healthy (tho lbr probably not getting as much good food because their chef was mia)… he’s not going to know what to do with himself. he’s going to feel useless because what he thought was his only role in life is being filled by his giant moose of a brother.

and dean winchester does not take orders (non-sexy ones, anyway) so him and sam’ll probably clash. maybe sam and cas team up to yell at him to rest, they got this. dean is going to end up feeling like that sitcoms mom that goes back to work and thinks the house can’t run without her but everyone seems to be doing ok and she feels unneeded.

i do predict, tho, that they figure it out fairly quickly in a way that doesn’t piss them both off for episodes on end, preferably.

this season seems to be tfw figuring out together through jack, shared son and mirror extraordinaire, that their worth isn’t in what their roles are supposed to be or their powers or what their skills are.

it’s in the people they love. they’re needed and worth something because they have family that care about them and need them alive because they’re them.

i just want everyone to be and do things because they want to. not because they have “no other choice”.