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jack’s birthday

this moment about sam remembering jack’s birthday?

dean blanks completely and sam remembers exactly.

sam remembers for the same reason dean forgot: it was one of the worst days of their lives.

their mom is gone. their best friend was murdered. and they had what they thought was a scary powerful creature on the loose.

and what i think is amazing is that even though it was the worst day, it was the start of a significant and beautiful change in their lives.

The LOOK Dean gives Sam.. That’s…not just startled Sam is quick to name a date. Look at how Dean shoots a very hard stare. His face shuts off, it looks like Dean tenses up, even fight-or-flight mode for a split second. Why? Because Dean does remember That Date but not as Jack’s birthday. It’s the date Cas was murdered in front of his eyes. That’s, I think, what Dean’s mind goes to first when Cas says that date. Then when Sam explains it’s Jack’s birthday Dean relaxes.

yes EXACTLY. i didn’t add that deeper destiel analysis on this post because i was focusing on them becoming dads and jack and feels related to that but YES

“forgot” is the wrong word. dean didn’t forget. buried deep to try and forget, yes. but he never could. not for as long as he lives.