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coda for 14×02

Dean hurts all over and there’s a buzzing in his ear that won’t go away. He can’t tell if that was there before Michael, because he can barely remember what having control of his own body feels like. 

How has it only been a few weeks?

Mom and Bobby are keeping their distance, not even trying to hide their suspicion, but Sam is a steady presence at his side, keeping him from keeling over on every other step. Dean wants to push him away, keep him safe from the monster that might still be lurking inside of him, but he doesn’t have the strength.

He doesn’t have the strength to protest when they bring him back to the bunker, either. Especially not when they stumble down the stairs and Cas is standing at the bottom, staring at Dean with such naked worry and longing that Dean can barely look him in the eye.

But he does look. And Cas looks back, searching for something in Dean’s expression.

Traces of Michael, Dean realizes with a start.

Sam is the one to break the silence. “Is he…”

“It’s Dean,” Cas says, voice breathless with relief, and something in Dean’s chest loosens. 

He didn’t know until just now but he’s been waiting for the confirmation that he’s still himself, still Dean and not some stranger who took up residence in his body after Michael vacated the premises.

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