I’m going to be a People for once.

lastfadinghopeternal:

intelligentshipper:

You know, when I first came to fandom, a while ago, I was just here to geek out on numbers, production commentary – you know, technical stuff. I was here to fan over random content, speculate, buzz with like minds, maybe pipe up about a few things I knew that others probably didn’t, albeit with discretion. You know, fan things (albeit my nerdy flavor.)

And at some point, goddamn fucking TAW started his horse shit again, and somehow, I became a leading battering ram back because of other skill sets I have – because you don’t just let something like that go if you can fight back. He was friggin’ targeting Misha after an eternity of targeting both him and fandom. You can’t just ignore that. (Especially seeing him knowingly weaponize Misha fans with the best intentions, continuing to float bunk bad PR wank, and knowing how to re-kit it.)

Hell, some of you may not know. I’m the one that kicked off the New Years Ring In of #blacklisttaw (someone else had suggested the tag like a week before then it kinda sat and rotted) – and I was engaged before that, and never stopped being engaged after it.

And there’s so many things I’ve sat on since December. So very many things. And I’m so very tired. There’s so many wars that have been fought while the world thinks things are silent because I try so hard to go back to fandom squii on the surface while meanwhile I’m in some eternal digital battlefield.

I’m tired.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m here to stay. I’m too stubborn to let anyone like him win. It’s in my nature. But I’m so tired of sitting on secrets and hoarding information and posturing all of my words in preparation for a legal battle that could happen in two weeks or two years. I’m so tired of monitoring his little social rings goddamn near 24-7. But I mean, once I know they’re there, and once I know how to watch them, how can I just stop in good conscience?

And generally, I can’t talk about what I know. Do it too soon, you look like you’re attacking innocents or just being an ass, or nobody takes you seriously, or you play out your cards before the match is done. And that’s just it. I’m tired of leading a fandom life that’s like an eternal poker match. Where I have to be careful about even warning a friend about something because if they echo it to a friend with the best intentions, it can eventually echo to the wrong person and burn everything down. A world where I refuse to be paranoid but must be guarded in all words at all moments.

Bro-onlies, tinhats, etc will never really bother me. They’re pissingly miniscule and irrelevant compared to someone who tries to screw around with TPTB in all waking, breathing moments of their life. It’s like slapping a fly away at this point.

I’m so very tired. I’m tired of a polarized fandom where everyone even tries to stronghold their personal right to fight for something, or police how things are policed, or assume what someone’s making assumptions about, just because I’m forever caught in this gnarled up thing made by one man who literally just can’t go away. Where we’re stuck fighting our own just to fight back against someone like him. Even those that think they’re fighting against him. 

Hell, when I started posting announcements just before this last blowout, I was posting them because I knew, but couldn’t entirely say without kicking off the dumpster fire from the wrong end instead of letting them light it while they were standing in it – but immediately got met with resistance, instead of being taken for the potential warning. Then… guess what! Turns out crazy old Bobby knew exactly what crazy old Bobby was hinting at without making an initial panic crowd response. It’s not only the fandom famous or BNFs that have fought their ass off, you know. Some of us just don’t talk about it until the world is burning.

That’s it. That’s all he has to do. Just go away.

Inb4 some asshole argues about or against my right to be tired because they feel they should be tiredererer for X reason.

If I seem lackluster these next few days, or a bit sharp, forgive me. I’m just tired.

honest to god it shouldn’t just fall on you as a whole this fandom should have done so much over the past 2 years in keeping tabs but so many turned a blind eye after the whole emily thing and so many more switched sides due to pressure (ie. death threats, heavy posturing from mayo/cult, personal info being leaked, bullying and so so much more) 

this fandom this entire fandom needs to wake up and it’s sad its down to people like to constantly be on top of things with little results and a lot of backfire from assholes that would rather bury their heads in the sand

this fandom needs to support people like you for putting yourself out there at such a big RISK with little to no support/protection 

so i speak for myself as someone who hasn’t been affected by all of this but has been trying to stay aware, thank you for what you’re doing and i’m so sorry so many more fans haven’t backed you and others like you, as they should have.