HAHA I JUST REALISED THAT DEAN HAD ALSO TOLD SAM TO HOOK UO WITH WOMEN AFTER JESS’ DEATH HAHA ITS FINE I’M FINE

elizabethrobertajones:

You know considering I liiiiterally just watched 1×19 in the last week or so I am now kicking myself XD

SAM
What? Ever since we got here, you been trying to pimp me out to Sarah. Just back off, all right?

DEAN
Well, you like her don’t you? 

DEAN
All right, you like her, she likes you, you’re both consenting adults…

SAM
What’s the point, Dean? We’ll just leave. We always leave.

DEAN
Well I’m not talking about marriage, Sam.

SAM
You know, I don’t get it. What do you care if I hook up?

DEAN
Cause then maybe you wouldn’t be so cranky all the time.

DEAN
You know, seriously Sam, this isn’t about just hooking up, okay? I mean, I, I think that this Sarah girl could be good for you.

DEAN
And… I don’t mean any disrespect but I’m sure this is about Jessica, right? Now I don’t know what it’s like to lose somebody like that…. but… I would think that she would want you to be happy.

DEAN
God forbid have fun once in a while. Wouldn’t she?

SAM
Yeah I know she would.

And dammit not only am I annoyed I didn’t think of it immediately because I re-watched in the last week, but I also am responsible for these posts 😛

https://elizabethrobertajones.tumblr.com/post/167044846423/elizabethrobertajones-1×19-5×15-thanks-for

https://elizabethrobertajones.tumblr.com/post/162085401558/sam-agitated-you-know-i-dont-get-it-what-do

And LEMME TELL YOU ABOUT THE SECOND ONE because wow did I think this was going to be relevant but come at it wrong, and I’m laughing at past!Me being nervous about this now (model the worst case scenario for all spec, but don’t get depressed like you think it will actually happen, it makes life so much easier :P)

In that post I randomly comment

I always think this is a very interesting Dean episode, because it’s overtly about Sam, and caricatures Dean in the background to a lot of surface level Dean traits. But there are tells that Dean might be PRESENTED this way but he’s still his usual smart cookie self underneath the partying and obsession with sex and so on

it’s pretty much an aside but when we get to the performing Dean nonsense… I mean Dean’s acting hard to try and get Sam to loosen up and have fun – have the hook up he was trying to get him in the open of the episode, and then to help him with Sarah, because he was putting on a massive cheer up act for Sam seeing him in such a bad way over Jess’s loss.

In the same way, now, Sam appears to have diligently researched how to make Dean happy based off of everything he’s ever learned about the surface comforts Dean goes for to make himself feel better, and has previously tried to push off on Sam. But of course the read on Dean in 1×19 where he’s smarter than he’s acting and he’s trying to help Sam seems to explain how Sam is reacting to him perfectly, if that’s how Dean thinks Sam ought to cope with loss. 

…

Which, tbh, now I’m confused because the first read in a LOL SAMMY KNOWS realm was actually that Sam doesn’t completely understand how bad it is for Dean, but this being a possible further Sam & Jess parallel to Dean losing Cas (which has happened a… weird… amount :P) does push this right back to Sammy knows territory, because of course Dean nudged around in Sam’s prickly feelings and rooted out at least the source, if not the why.

In Sam’s case it was because – ow fuck that hurts to think about – he didn’t want Sarah to get involved in their lives and die because of knowing him.

In Dean’s case… well is there some deeper level that even if Sam sort of knows it’s about losing Cas, he’s just not quite… getting… how deep down messed up traumatised Dean is about this?

I mean… hmm. 😛